2010 welcome

Currently listening to: sorry sorry, answer-Super Junior

Heyas it's Jess
hasn't really blogged for a while
i just came back from China

nothing much happen
as mentioned previously i don't have a very exciting life
so yeah
adios
xxx

Jess=]

Giving up isn't the only option

Currently listening to: She Was Mine by Jesse Barrera and AJ Rafael

Heya, Jess here
haven't really written for a long while now
tomorrow I'll be heading off to China, normally a rush of excitement fills me during this time. however not this year, this year, i feel

nothing

So yeah, i don't know what to write anymore, it's like I've lost the strength to be able to simple things in life these days. Just keeping my eyes open seem like a hard task.

I guess i have become way more suicidal now than i was in the past, but I'm sure ill survive since I'm alive this day, it means that i was able to conquer my urges to suicide

H.O.P.E

Getting back on track

currently listening to: G.O.O.D Love by MBLAQ

Heya blog world, Jess here
why do we steal?
is it to satisfy ourselves? or is it just because we really really need that thing
the worst kind of stealing is stealing your best friend's boyfriend
why would anyone do such a horrible thing?
Girls are like animals when it comes to love, if the boys shouldn't belong to you why can't you just move on?
I've herd because someone believe their best friend's boyfriend should've been theirs, they didn't even attend her best friends wedding.
silly isn't it?

So I've realised if i like someone, sometimes i need to know when the time comes, i should let go no cling on and hope maybe one day he'll realise me and work out we were meant to be
i went to a wedding yesterday, i watched as two people became one and expressed their love and joy to each other
do u know when u agree to marry someone, you set the biggest promise ever made in your life?
no lying, full honesty, totally trust in each other, together till death
do u know when i listened to these, i realised how hard these things actually were and even though right now i would never be able to say i do
but when the moment comes, and I've found my one and only, would saying i do be easier?


Sometimes you just need to be reminded to move on, and no longer cling on to the past
I'm at the crossroad where I'm wondering should i move on, or maybe i just can't forget the past
life isn't easy
xxxx


=]Jess

Maybe we are meant to be?

currently listening to: I was crazy about you - 2pm

heyaaaas, so yeah it's me Jess =)
if u haven't noticed, i got a tumblr
so yeah if u have one follow me =)

the truth is i can't let go of love
the devil definitely controls me when it comes to love
i want him to let go, i don't want to feel pain every time i get rejected
Why do i speak of this
well i like a new guy
because the old one decided to get a gf and fill his freaking msn with her name and their Love for each other, yes it disturbs me, deeply!

well who is this guy, i don't know
but I'm sure he's out there and waiting
hopefully
yeah, life's pretty depressing

hmmm what to write about
i wish i was as creative and happy as David
then I'll have this awesome long blog about happy things in my life
but i don't have any
so yeah
the end?
xxx


=]Jess

Love save the empty

Currently listening to: Try - Asher Book

sup lahh to the people who are actually bothered to read this shit blog =)
Nothing much has really happened really
I've finally made my mind that i need to stop worry about my love life
in other words
I'm facing the fact that i don't really have one
.........

So yeah this guy that likes me called me on Friday
i didn't want to pick up but i did
so the thing was my friend was prank calling people on my phone
and she called him
bu he didn't pick up
so yeah he kept calling me back
and i was like no don't stop STOP!
but i picked up
he has a really sexy voice
but he has a ugly face =P

When i said i would do anything to get you
i wasn't prepared
it was silly really
looking back on it i think i t was like a mega LOL moment
but yeah
i wish one day you'll realise i was there and just let me know

thankyou
I'm done
I'm bored
I'm tired
I'm leaving
xxxxx



=]Jess

Remember back in the days.....

Currently listening to: The Leaders - G-Dragon ft Cl and Teddy

Heya, Jess here reporting from planet i forgot it's name
So yeah today is the last day of holidays
tomorrow resembles the start of school/exams/stress/death!
therefore i may not survive so i thought I'll cram in one more post before i exploded and no longer exist in this world of mine

I spend the last two weeks meeting new people, seeing old ones and studying
i spent them tired, happy, depressed and hopeful
however thinking back on them all i feeling is disappointment
disappointment on things i said and didn't say
on memories i could or couldn't have
my holidays were filled with a;agn;sadkbnwoir[asfdl;ldfknglskdnapsdok

So on Saturday i meet up with him = ex crush
i don't know but when i want to like someone
i do really quickly
when i made my mind to forget them, i do so quickly too
however i cannot stand seeing their face again
cause i know once i do, i will like them again
and this time i will fall even harder
and it did happen
i haven't seen him for like 9 months
I've forgotten about him and moved on to others
but once i see his face again
i realised I've never really gotten over him, ever

Like i say
I'm just a depressed child
that no body really likes but my mummy and my family =)
and at this moment, I'm pretty happy with that
ahaha kekekekkeke ahahaha
yeah
bye bye
xxxxxx


=]Jess