Giving up isn't the only option

Currently listening to: She Was Mine by Jesse Barrera and AJ Rafael

Heya, Jess here
haven't really written for a long while now
tomorrow I'll be heading off to China, normally a rush of excitement fills me during this time. however not this year, this year, i feel

nothing

So yeah, i don't know what to write anymore, it's like I've lost the strength to be able to simple things in life these days. Just keeping my eyes open seem like a hard task.

I guess i have become way more suicidal now than i was in the past, but I'm sure ill survive since I'm alive this day, it means that i was able to conquer my urges to suicide

H.O.P.E

Getting back on track

currently listening to: G.O.O.D Love by MBLAQ

Heya blog world, Jess here
why do we steal?
is it to satisfy ourselves? or is it just because we really really need that thing
the worst kind of stealing is stealing your best friend's boyfriend
why would anyone do such a horrible thing?
Girls are like animals when it comes to love, if the boys shouldn't belong to you why can't you just move on?
I've herd because someone believe their best friend's boyfriend should've been theirs, they didn't even attend her best friends wedding.
silly isn't it?

So I've realised if i like someone, sometimes i need to know when the time comes, i should let go no cling on and hope maybe one day he'll realise me and work out we were meant to be
i went to a wedding yesterday, i watched as two people became one and expressed their love and joy to each other
do u know when u agree to marry someone, you set the biggest promise ever made in your life?
no lying, full honesty, totally trust in each other, together till death
do u know when i listened to these, i realised how hard these things actually were and even though right now i would never be able to say i do
but when the moment comes, and I've found my one and only, would saying i do be easier?


Sometimes you just need to be reminded to move on, and no longer cling on to the past
I'm at the crossroad where I'm wondering should i move on, or maybe i just can't forget the past
life isn't easy
xxxx


=]Jess

Maybe we are meant to be?

currently listening to: I was crazy about you - 2pm

heyaaaas, so yeah it's me Jess =)
if u haven't noticed, i got a tumblr
so yeah if u have one follow me =)

the truth is i can't let go of love
the devil definitely controls me when it comes to love
i want him to let go, i don't want to feel pain every time i get rejected
Why do i speak of this
well i like a new guy
because the old one decided to get a gf and fill his freaking msn with her name and their Love for each other, yes it disturbs me, deeply!

well who is this guy, i don't know
but I'm sure he's out there and waiting
hopefully
yeah, life's pretty depressing

hmmm what to write about
i wish i was as creative and happy as David
then I'll have this awesome long blog about happy things in my life
but i don't have any
so yeah
the end?
xxx


=]Jess

Love save the empty

Currently listening to: Try - Asher Book

sup lahh to the people who are actually bothered to read this shit blog =)
Nothing much has really happened really
I've finally made my mind that i need to stop worry about my love life
in other words
I'm facing the fact that i don't really have one
.........

So yeah this guy that likes me called me on Friday
i didn't want to pick up but i did
so the thing was my friend was prank calling people on my phone
and she called him
bu he didn't pick up
so yeah he kept calling me back
and i was like no don't stop STOP!
but i picked up
he has a really sexy voice
but he has a ugly face =P

When i said i would do anything to get you
i wasn't prepared
it was silly really
looking back on it i think i t was like a mega LOL moment
but yeah
i wish one day you'll realise i was there and just let me know

thankyou
I'm done
I'm bored
I'm tired
I'm leaving
xxxxx



=]Jess

Remember back in the days.....

Currently listening to: The Leaders - G-Dragon ft Cl and Teddy

Heya, Jess here reporting from planet i forgot it's name
So yeah today is the last day of holidays
tomorrow resembles the start of school/exams/stress/death!
therefore i may not survive so i thought I'll cram in one more post before i exploded and no longer exist in this world of mine

I spend the last two weeks meeting new people, seeing old ones and studying
i spent them tired, happy, depressed and hopeful
however thinking back on them all i feeling is disappointment
disappointment on things i said and didn't say
on memories i could or couldn't have
my holidays were filled with a;agn;sadkbnwoir[asfdl;ldfknglskdnapsdok

So on Saturday i meet up with him = ex crush
i don't know but when i want to like someone
i do really quickly
when i made my mind to forget them, i do so quickly too
however i cannot stand seeing their face again
cause i know once i do, i will like them again
and this time i will fall even harder
and it did happen
i haven't seen him for like 9 months
I've forgotten about him and moved on to others
but once i see his face again
i realised I've never really gotten over him, ever

Like i say
I'm just a depressed child
that no body really likes but my mummy and my family =)
and at this moment, I'm pretty happy with that
ahaha kekekekkeke ahahaha
yeah
bye bye
xxxxxx


=]Jess

Dreams catch me as i fall

Currently listening to: Try - Asher Brook

Heyyyy this is Jess =)

"If i walk would you run

If i stop would you come

If i say you're the one would you believe me

If i ask you to stay would you show me the way

Tell me what to say so you don't leave me

The world is catching up to you

While your running away to chase your dream

It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change

And maybe I'm not ready

But I'm trying for your love

I can hide up above

I will try for your love

We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song would you sing along

Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull

If i give you my heart would you just play the part

Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful

Am i catching up to you

While your running away, to chase your dreams

It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change

And maybe i'm not ready"

I found some really nice lyrics thought that maybe i should share with you =)

My dad left today
Though i don't know what time
i could feel it in my heart
like a knife cutting something away, ripping it out
it hurt, i felt it
but the truth is i don't love my dad
i'm constantly angry at him, for being him and doing what he did
but then i become angry at myself for being angry at him
i know, complicated much?

He lied to me this time
he didn't dare tell me
to disappoint me again
that he had chosen his job and his position over me
that he rather stay in China
making lots of money instead of staying with me
his visa to be a permanent resident in Australia expired
he gave up a chance to be with me whenever up
i give up on him too.

They say you shouldn't be afraid to dream
but my dreams just might destroy us
xxxx


=]Jess

Redemption song

Currently listening to: Won't even start - David Choi

Hey, short one today
i keep feeling theres nothing to life
that it's pointless to go outside and be happy
Sometimes i wish i was going to die soon
then i might be bothered to live life

xxxx

Yes, Even Stars Break

Currently listening to - Why i like you by Super junior

Herro everyone
Well I'm here in Bowral on a farm doing farm things
and
sleeping way more than i should
however I'm actually having a good time
but i do miss my mum =(

Whats new in my life?
umm well once again I'm watching the person i like like someone else
and
I'm also helping him to get her
stupid i know
real stupid
but relationship this age generally don't work out so i do tend to try and stay away from them since they don't benefit me in anyway and i don't need the stress and extra load
*sigh*

Yearlies are coming up and i need to study harder
so I'm trying to fit dad time + meeting friends + cramming fro exams + sleep into 2 weeks
I'm not super omen but i think i might be able to do it
just maybe =)
so yeah that's all for now i think
i might have forgot somethings but
meh
cbf right now =)
love u guys =)
xxxxx

=] Jess

If you dare, propose to me in Hawaii =)

Currently listening to: Bulletproof - La Roux


Heya, i was going to apologize for not posting fro a long time then i realise nobody pretty much reads this so yeah no point hey?
So anything new?
not really
anything old?
yeah, i was sitting in Lance Cove like i do and i walk pass a couple (i think they were), then i thought wow, teenagers really love to snogg.
Then guess what the boy was Jack Howard
If you don't know who he is, and i didn't expect you too, he was my primary school crush
i don't like him now
but wow seeing him after 3 years...................man has he changed???

So i really don't want to say this but i have boy troubles
what do you call a person who still likes a person after knowing they already have a gf and will not like you?
Jessica Jin =)
so i can't let him go. Sometimes i think maybe he will realise I'm here and stop telling me about all the girls he likes, and ask me how to help him get them. Whats even worse is that i do help him get them.
I'm really a sad child
Maybe there's help out there for me?
NAH!!
=)

So daddy and Grandma came making me slightly happier
also to add i think I've found a new friend i can trust if he lets me =)
PONYO!!!
xxxx


=]Jess

New Seasons bring with them new faces

Currently listening to: Sexy in here - Ne-Yo

Harro, this is Jess
So I've become really obsessed with a thing called colour splash
this is when a picture is in black and white apart from one thing or more than one that's like the focus point
they look really cool =)

=)))))

Anyways i got a really bad maths result so i was like really pissed
but then i talked to my friend and she made me feel better
then i went home and became depressed again
then i felt happy because my mum fed me
then i went on the computer and remembered my maths mark and became depressed again =)
i have such a great life =)

So i was face with a big decision today
My English teacher wants us to enter the creative writing comp
but i suck at creative writing
i really mean it
so i was like, ummmm okayyyy ill try my best
the topic was
inspiration
the problem is, i have none
i spent the whole lesson looking up random stuff
listening to Korean music
writing a piece on year 12 students
deleting that
restarting to write some random stuff on bitches
then deleted that
so pretty much, i ended up with a blank piece of paper
very helpful huh??
so i waited the whole lesson for the inspiration to hit me
but it didn't
sigh
didn't have a very good day =(
xxxx


=]Jess

Time and time again i fail

Currently listening to : Hide and seek - Imogen Heap

Hey there cyber world.
Currently my house is a whole of darkness and silence
it use to be a ball of fun and loudness
let me tell you what happened
My auntie and her two kids moved away
Yay
But
Nay
cause our house is so silent it's creepy

Hmmm what is there to talk about
well I've been inspired to drop Japanese next year and pick up Textiles because i really want to make clothing and things like that
since I'm doing crap in Jap there's no point in wasting a subject like that so yeah
But I'm determined to work really hard because i really want to do well in my year 12 works

On a sad note
Park Ja Beom
Leader of 2pm has officially left JYP entertainment and returned but to Seattle
Why?
Because of a stupid thing of the past
Jay's past comments on Myspace stating he hated Korean
made antis go made and forced him to leave JYP
if i could say one thing to the antis it would be
FUCK OFFF
i really love Jay and i believe dearly that he will come back =)


i miss you <3

anyways
nothing else really
if u haven't realised i haven't been posting as much
that's because my life really isn't that interesting
i only post when my life becomes interesting =)
ciao ciao
xxxx


=]Jess

216 <3

Currently listening to: Leaving tonight - NeYo ft Jennifer Hudson

Hi, It's been a while
so I'm not as creative, not as interesting, not as cool and funky as the other bloggers out there
so reading my blog could cause serious boredom to your whole body and soul
but if your ready for it, read on =]

i realised the last time i wrote was back in July, long time, long time
So lets start with something interesting
on 14th August i officially turned 15, yep old but true
i don't know why but i starting to fear getting older and closer to year 12
i hope i can do well, I'm so worried that i wont
So i was on facebook and my Friend posted this
when doing a test think of the worst possible outcome, because the outcome you get will be so much better than that, i totally agree with that =]

So I've semi decided what i want to do in the future
I want to be a Zoo Vet working at Taroonga Zoo =]
I'm pretty sure this could change anytime because well the future is pretty far from now =]

bye bye for now
nothing else to say it there ?
xxxx


Jess =]

Happy moments are truly priceless

Currently listening to: One more time - Daft Punk

Hiya, Jess here,
i havent really written in here for a while now because well its the holidays and I'm 'relaxing' or trying to.

So here's run down of my holiday
week 1 - sat home did nothing
week 2 - went skiing !!!
week 3 - semi worked and semi did nothing
movies seen - Harry Potter, the proposal, transformers (best movie ever) and i think that's it =]

not very interesting huh
school starts tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it =[ but yeah it's my duty as a teenager to attend school (says mum)

nothing to write about
so I'll go
bye
xxxxx


=]Jess

....

He didn't come

Timeless, truly timeless =]

currently listening to: 거짓말이야-space cowboy

Hello, Jess here
tomorrow is the last youf of the term, if i see him, I'll continue to like him, but if he doesn't turn up, i could give up AKA be really hurt.
At this age when your heart broken there's not much things you could do. You can't drink or pick a fight like they do in movies but you can cry, with all honesty and truth you can cry out your pain your sorrow. Sometimes that is the easiest way to forget that painful memory.

Over time I've learned to be alone and to be use to pain so i no longer cry out when I'm in pain-sad =(

So anyways nothing has happened, i went and saw the proposal and man is Ryan Reynolds hot or what? Seriously he is one cutie, too bad he's like married to stupid Scarlett Johansson. Also he is kinda 33 years old but hell I'll date him any day =P
Hot right?

I've totally realised how big of a hottie Taemin from Shinee has become like seriously he is one charming boy with his piano, dancing, singing skills he is one to look out for (when I'm in Korea) lol

But he should really gain some weight =]

Nest Wednesday I'm heading down to the snow, wish me good luck and pray that i don't do anything too embarrassing and there will be lots of hot boys =P
I'm so desperate
xxxx
=]Jess

Fate.Luck.Wish

Currently listening to: Fallin for you - Colbie Caillat

Hey hey, Jess here
i realise after not having this link on my MSN, I've forgotten that i have a a blog
Holidays have arrived and well i have nothing to do. I'm currently job hunting so if anyone knows a place which needs people to work there then contact me =]
So mum says that if i don't touch the piano again i will have to sell it, the truth is i don't like playing the piano for grades but for fun, i love it. The problem is i don't know what to play, i don't want to play classical Mozart or something like that, i want something fun and happy to play. I find one of these songs once in a while but the trouble is i never finish it. Cause they are always a love song, i don't have that emotion to finish the piece, I don't know love.

Love, yes, what is it? There is actually no definition in the world that can truly describe what love is. But everyone knows it's one of the best feelings in the world and everyone wants a piece of it. It's like the ultimate pizza that everyone likes. But we can't, love isn't found i reckon. I think you need to really fight and earn people's love, to work for it, not receive it casually cause then you will never truly understand what love is.

One tear drop per second by K.Will is a great song, i realise i really like K.Will's voice. Also Chung Lim has one of the most sexy deep voices that are to die for =]
xxxx


=]Jess

You will be remembered

Currently listening to: Beautiful nightmare - Beyonce

As you know something bad has happened, Micheal Jackson the King of Pop died due to a heart attack, but no matter what his song and his dance moves and everything will be remembered and treasured. Also

i have Swine flu

I've been sick with swine flu like symptoms for the last 4 days, horrible, i feel horrible. I have the worst headache+vomiting+tummy ache+fatigue. Not good

Anyways holidays are coming up in about 2 days YAY i bet everyone will be rejoicing cause this is a 3 week holiday, one of the longest apart from Christmas holidays

nothing much to say, really.
xxx


=]Jess

Tears are getting the better of me

Currently listening to: 你听得到-周杰伦

Hey, Jess here (Duh)
So i got my reports back
they were horrible, so bad that i can't even take it. I thought i should have done better and yes i am crying about it. Why is it that even though i work really hard and everything i still do really bad in my reports? Huh? am i weird or something or does the teacher just fucking hate me?

Results:
Maths A
English A
Science B
Elective history B
PDHPE C
History B
Japanese A
VA A

Yes u might be think WTH it's not bad at all, but i got a C, and i got 3 bloody B's, Dad i going to have a rage at me for that stupid C that ruins it. Whats worse is that C was for bloody PDHPE which is like what the hell cause i reckon i did really well in PDHPE but of course the teacher doesn't think so. Ergh

I'm so depressed i want to cut myself again. Why is life so unfair =[
xxx


=[Jess

Cause when i'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground

Currently listening to: SNSD - Tell me your wish (genie)

Heya, Jess here
so another boring week is approaching me and I'm not ready for it, the boringness of it all will definitely drown me and i soon will fall asleep =P
I did really well this term with my half yearly tests but i still ain't getting good class test marks, like from science i got 26/34. Like what? shit mark much? Then for maths i get a disappointing 55/65, really bad i know. I hope I'll put more effort both test and class marks.


For my special friend i hope you wake up and realise what she is doing to you before you turn into her, because if you don't she will hurt you. I know it and i can see it coming.


Well people are already starting to talk about the formal. If you haven't realised, it's one year away. I don't get it does everyone have to bring a date, can't we celebrate our formal in the way that it's a time for girls to party hard and have fun, not show off how hot their date is or even of they have a date. I personally is going to go as a single person with on partner and i am going to have fun no matter how many boys will be there and how people talk about me, this is my formal and I'm going to do whatever i want, without a date =]

For Sejung's sake, SNSD released their first single called tell me your wish (genie) the truth is that it is actually really good and i kinda like it. But the truth is that no way is it as good as Gee. Gee is just better than it, but I'm waiting fro the MV to come out, maybe the dance routine won't be such a disappointment.
xxxx



=]Jess

The chase is on =]

Currently listening to: Ggoom - K.Will

Ello, Jess here
nothing much has happened
rain is still falling and i really really am loving
rain is such a peaceful thing

So Taecyeon's Mnet Scandal has started
the truth is
when i watched the first episode i had two reactions
one, i cried, i was depressed, he cannot date a random girl for 2 weeks, i will not allow it!
two, I wanted to punch the girl, she was so ugly and up herself, when they asked Taecyeon who is your girlfriend and is she here, she straight away stood up, arrogance dear is not good!
Anyways if they don't do one with Jaebeom as well then I'll be okay since they already took Taecyeon and Nickhun which is totally aerhjvasdf but yeah I'm alright i guess.

So since i have my target I'm ready to go after it
this is the first time in my life
that i have the courage to chase after the guy i like
instead of encouraging them to chase after someone else
I'm ready for the heart break and all the pain
i will do this
i have to at least try once to get what i want
i sound so silly
but i am determined to do this =]
so please, if you are my friend
wish me luck =P
xxxx


=]Jess

How do i speak these words without hurting you

Currently listening to: Hot issue-4 minutes

Please listen to me
i don't like what you've turned into, your not normally like this. You're really changed from a nice girl into one who doesn't have a brain, who doesn't think before do, who is not what you are which is a sweet friendly nice girl.
I don't like your always changing personalities, your forceful ways towards my friends. I didn't think you could change into such a horrible person. But I'm hurting, hurting to see you like this, hurting to know that you no longer truly understand how much your hurting everyone around you.
Please stop. Come back.
If you're reading this, understand I'm not being mean, i want you to wake up and return to the nice person you really are instead of one who is now i dint know, crazy. Please wake up and come back.

Popular response to my last blog was Mr C and A and E was definitely out of the picture, thanks guys =]
xxxx


=]Jess

Heart please choose wisely

Currently listening to: Replay-Brand NewJiq (cover)

Ah Yong, it's jessika here
as u know i named this blog as heart please choose wisely, why did i name it this? Well i have been stuck on these three guys (listen I'm pretty ridiculous okay, so stick with me) I'll describe them to you and you can help me choose. okay?

Number 1 A
A is older than me by one year, his really tall and we don't have much convo but when we do,i like them =]. He's Asian, around as smart as me, has a good humor but is too much of a flirt.

Number 2 E
E is also older than me, shorter than A and i really smart, he already has a crush on someone else and we have okay conversations, but i never felt really connected with him cause he has lots of girl friends.

Number 3 C
C is one year older than me ( i like older guys =]) tall and has a really sweet and nice personality, we get on really well and he's hell cute =] but we barely ever see each other.

Who should i choose? Which one sounds good to you?

Anyway I'm really angry with a show called Mnet Scandal, it's where Korean superstars get to go out with a normal girl for one week then decide if they want them as a permanent girlfriend. So they've got TeacYeon on the show, he has a fugly girl to go out with who is really flat and i hate it, cause i like it him, like him a lot cause he is hot, cute, great rapper and singer, also a bonus thing is that he can speak English really well =]

lol
Sejung my friend suggested i should talk about my day
well here it is, i was sick, i did science notes, i day dreamed and i perved on Park Jeabeom's sexy six pack and his hot voice and everything =]
xxxx


=]Jess

Old song bring new memories

Currently listening to: Stuttering - Mario

Hello, Jess writing in her blog that no one reads but herself and some close friends
sometimes i wonder why even started this
it's really a useless blog, no one ever reads it

So I've started to watch the well known Korean drama boys over flowers, and seriously it's so good. My new boy crush is Gu Jun Pyo (Lee Min Ho), he is like hot, cute, manly and definitely my type, lol, every time i get a new boy crush my mum is like, "aren't you ashamed of yourself for acting so silly? Another guy gosh your so stupid" lol i love my mum =].

Isn't he hot?

Boy over flowers great drama, if you have time, WATCH IT =]

So i was wondering, if the one you loved is going to ask someone else out and you still really like them but you don't want to ruin everything, do you stay silent and watch them leave? Or do you speak up, tell them and hope they might have the littlest feelings towards you? I choose Neither what do i mean by that i mean i leave them, i hide, i run away never talk to them, until ages later when i realise this isn't the way to go.

I run away.

All my friends would think that I'm this strong person who stands up when it comes to love, and well is really brave when it comes to love. Let me tell you this, I'm not strong, I'm weak, so weak to the point that i can cry over one stupid useless boy. I tired to be strong to over come it but i can't i really can't. So to let you know, I'm scared of it, of love, i hate being tr aped by, played by it, it's painful.

Also Kim Bum is one to keep an eye on too =P
cute huh?
that's all for now =]
xxxx


=]Jess

i really am dying

Currently listening to: Bad Case - Jackie boyz

hello, Jessie here =]
blogging for the second time today
so yeah you guessed it
I'm really bored =]

so congrats to Lina
she finally caught Sebastian
now i need to catch my boy
well who is my boy??
i don't really have one
sad i know
but every guy i like never likes me back
i think i already said that
but i shall repeat it =]
cause i weird like that =]

okay so i lied
i know who i like
but this person will be really obvious to my friends
so i shall call him 'Tommy'
Tommy is cool
and funny
and i really like him
and has liked him for a while now
but too sacred to tell him
because i can tell he doesn't see me in that way
and i don't want to ruin what we have
so yeah
i just like to watch him and like him secretly
sounds creepy but I'm not stalking him or anything =]
lol
to end this
ill say
i am really a weird and sad little child
*sigh*
xxxxx



=]Jess

Did you know...

Currently listening to: Talk to you - Shinee

Heya, Jessy here
well shinee made their comeback live
yes I'm very excited
i watched it and
it was HOT!!!!!
OMG they all are soo hot
except for Jong Hyun who i never liked
and also key, who decided to dye his hair yellow
sorry babe
it don't work !
anyways Taemin oppa is as hot as ever
and MINHO!!!
argh i could eat him
they all did a good job
and they also won 1st straight away
pushing Super Junior off for their 5th win
(yes i was kinda depressed that Super Junior got knocked off but meh)
if you love me
you'll watch this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuT4vLZStPU&feature=channel_page

Okay new boy issues has come up
so listen out
C is his name and he gawgus
i love him
he's a huge cutie and well i think he might like me
but i think every guy i liked liked me back
but they never did
=[
but also
he has a girlfriend
and well she seems like a nice girlfriend
so they're better off together than me interrupting them =]
lol
I'm a funny weird child
xxx


=]Jess

Studying really pays off =]

Currently obsession over: Jaebeom's body =P

Sup laa, Jess here
so i got most of my test back
and well
they were pretty good results
well
they were great results
everything i got back were in the 80% mark
so yeah why was i stressing int he first place??

anyways
every though my Friends think I'm good with boys
i realise i relay ain't good
well actually i really shy
if u know me you wouldn't believe this
but
when i like someone
i find it hard to even look at them
so talking to them is like 'woah'

so I've realised something turn out very different to what you want
it's like watching Romeo and Juliet but they live happily ever after instead of both of them dying =[
why am i saying this? Well i believe
people i use to think hated me
like me
well they accept me and no longer bag me out
or tease me about stuff
so yeah
i am surprised
thought i should share this with you =]

Lina is my friend
she has many boy problems
i want to thank her for making me realise
how stupid boys are
and in reality i really don't need them
lol
I'm really weird =]
but i love me the way i am
*humph*
xxxxx




=]Jess

funny how some things turn out =]

currently listening to: Love me - Yiruma

hey, Jess here
so anyways this week has been pretty hectic
i think i have swine flu cause i can;t stop sneezing
*sneeze*
so yeah hopefully i don't have it cause i hate being sick =P

i got 2 tests back
for science i came 2nd in my class and got 76/90, i thought it was a crap mark but apparently it was a great mark.
Japanese i received 87.9 out of 100 which surprised me i must say cause i was hoping for a pass meaning over 50 would've been fantastic.
so i guess so far my marks are pretty cool and good =]

well love life
hmm nothing much
apart from me watching Nickhun (famous Korean singer)
going out with some random girl for one whole week
and yes they've gotten very close
and yes she use to go out with Kim Bum (another hot Korean actor)
and yes she is ugly
and yes I'm jealous!
so that;s why i wish i lived in Korea
cause not only could this happen to me
i can also go to all their fan meetings and get autographs and hugs for free
even though i can't even speak Korean =]
lol
I'm weird
xxxxx



=]Jess

starting over

Currently listening to: Love story - 비 (Rain)

Hello, Jess here
anyways
i had a fun day today playing soccer in the mud
it was extremely fun
seriously, you should try it one day =]

Back to my boy issues
so A, i can tell
is totally in love with another girl
since she's my friend
and i think she might have some feelings towards him
so I'll let go
that's why i don't have that many boy problems
because something will come up
then I'll let go
and move on
fail in relationships =P

so i got 17/25 for my stupid history thing
i did it in 2 days
so pretty good
for maths extension paper
i got 35/40
lol
maths is really easy for me
but i wish i would get a few more marks =]

well that's it for now
but if something comes up
I'll blog again =]
xxx




J=]

Thinking is time wasting

Currently listening to: Case of you - Marques Huston

Jess here
staying at home all day didn't really make me feel any better
the truth is, what's really hurting
it's hidden
i can't really explain it
it's not the heart, but some part of me is breaking
now this could be a good or bad thing
but let me tell you
it's awfully painful =[

Tomorrow i have a Japanese listening test, which I'm so excited for
(feel my sarcasm)
i might be getting my history back, i really don't want it back
seeing as my friend got full marks
congrats to her =]
i guess the worst part of exams
is getting them back

Anyways A for people i know is not Aaron =]
thought i should just clear that up.
So I'm trying very hard
to make a dance choreo up
for my middle school performing arts thing
but I'm just so not in it
i want it to look cool and good
but not be too hard for me to teach it
hmmm
I'll figure something out
somehow
that's it for now
xxx




J=]

Thursday spent at home

Currently listening to: Hey Ya! - Jun Jin



Heya Jess here,
well it's Thursday
I'm suppose to be in school
but I'm home, sickies
i got my science test back recently
i got 25/38 which means mega fail =P
but for maths half yearlies i got 71/75
i wanted a better mark, but i guess 71 seems really good =]

anyways
what do you write in a blog?
really what do you write?

well
copying my friend's blog
she talks about her boy problems
what boy problems do i have?
hmmm
well there is one
lets call him A
A is one year older than me
smart
nice
tall
cute
everything i like in a guy
except, he probably won't like me
why?
cause every guys I've ever liked
never has ever liked me back
sad i know
but that's reality
and well being under that curse for all these years I've accepted it
so as long as i am friend with him
and we talk, I'm happy enough
i' m a sad child, you must know this
but i like to think I'm a princess living in a castle waiting for my prince to save me
(not really =P)
ta ta for now
xxxxx



J=]

Hmm more thoughts

Currently listening to: Nadia Oh - Got your number

Hey Jess here =]

so anyways more things on me

i love music, my life pretty much revolves around it

i especially love 2pm and super junior

if u got time

google them =]

well i guess I'm pretty simple

i go to a lovely hole school that no one has ever herd about

i am a proud Christian

and i have a dog

i called it boy =]

lol

xxx

Hey

Hello.
I'm kinda new to this, but i guess this will be a diary of mine except everything i write in here will be public and everyone can read it.
So here i go
I'm a normal girl
living in a little section of this huge world
I'm quite insignificant
but now and then i get noticed
anyways
that's me
weird intro but that's how it is =]
xxx