Well

So this isn't exactly a finish this one sort of thing but rather just something i want to get off my chest. I'm not a nice person, i have faults, i make mistakes and most of the time I'm a bitch. I apologise for this and many of you who are my friend know that even though I'm not the nicest of person I'm still a good friend, I'm there for you, we make jokes together and we laugh together. However i don't understand how you think that everything i do was especially targeted for you, to destroy you, to hurt you. You know what you think that me losing you was a huge mistake, well that's bullshit cause look at me, i don't give a damn that we aren't friend, i don't care that we aren't tight and most importantly if you would look at yourself in the mirror and see what you have become then you'll know that your worse, you're turning into a monster, your pulling other people down too. All those 'friends' of your will leave you but you'll never know how to regain them because you would have already locked yourself in a box filled with anger, insecurities and tears. Stop already, you think that this makes you a better person it really doesn't. Well this is it, we aren't friends, you can post shit about me on the Internet, i don't care, I'll carrying on in my life and u can carry on being not yourself.
Thank you though for still have been my friend
xxxx
farewell

New blog, new beginning

Hiya
I'm changing this blog, so if you dont know i have a tumblr so follow me there for all the personal stuff but i'm changing this blog to something totally new and exciting.
If you dont know, i'm quite a writer, i have written around 10 unfinished stories. What i've decided to do is i'll post them here and if anyone out in the Internet is bored you can finish them, in any way you like and want then Post i back to me or something. I don't care how you write it, i just want to see what creative people there are out there =)
anyways
Tumblr:http://ifuseekme.tumblr.com/

2010 welcome

Currently listening to: sorry sorry, answer-Super Junior

Heyas it's Jess
hasn't really blogged for a while
i just came back from China

nothing much happen
as mentioned previously i don't have a very exciting life
so yeah
adios
xxx

Jess=]

Giving up isn't the only option

Currently listening to: She Was Mine by Jesse Barrera and AJ Rafael

Heya, Jess here
haven't really written for a long while now
tomorrow I'll be heading off to China, normally a rush of excitement fills me during this time. however not this year, this year, i feel

nothing

So yeah, i don't know what to write anymore, it's like I've lost the strength to be able to simple things in life these days. Just keeping my eyes open seem like a hard task.

I guess i have become way more suicidal now than i was in the past, but I'm sure ill survive since I'm alive this day, it means that i was able to conquer my urges to suicide

H.O.P.E

Getting back on track

currently listening to: G.O.O.D Love by MBLAQ

Heya blog world, Jess here
why do we steal?
is it to satisfy ourselves? or is it just because we really really need that thing
the worst kind of stealing is stealing your best friend's boyfriend
why would anyone do such a horrible thing?
Girls are like animals when it comes to love, if the boys shouldn't belong to you why can't you just move on?
I've herd because someone believe their best friend's boyfriend should've been theirs, they didn't even attend her best friends wedding.
silly isn't it?

So I've realised if i like someone, sometimes i need to know when the time comes, i should let go no cling on and hope maybe one day he'll realise me and work out we were meant to be
i went to a wedding yesterday, i watched as two people became one and expressed their love and joy to each other
do u know when u agree to marry someone, you set the biggest promise ever made in your life?
no lying, full honesty, totally trust in each other, together till death
do u know when i listened to these, i realised how hard these things actually were and even though right now i would never be able to say i do
but when the moment comes, and I've found my one and only, would saying i do be easier?


Sometimes you just need to be reminded to move on, and no longer cling on to the past
I'm at the crossroad where I'm wondering should i move on, or maybe i just can't forget the past
life isn't easy
xxxx


=]Jess

Maybe we are meant to be?

currently listening to: I was crazy about you - 2pm

heyaaaas, so yeah it's me Jess =)
if u haven't noticed, i got a tumblr
so yeah if u have one follow me =)

the truth is i can't let go of love
the devil definitely controls me when it comes to love
i want him to let go, i don't want to feel pain every time i get rejected
Why do i speak of this
well i like a new guy
because the old one decided to get a gf and fill his freaking msn with her name and their Love for each other, yes it disturbs me, deeply!

well who is this guy, i don't know
but I'm sure he's out there and waiting
hopefully
yeah, life's pretty depressing

hmmm what to write about
i wish i was as creative and happy as David
then I'll have this awesome long blog about happy things in my life
but i don't have any
so yeah
the end?
xxx


=]Jess